I Seek Peace

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)

It is times like these that I need to see, hear, feel and more importantly take to heart the words of the Apostle John. The last few days have been quite troubling and the next few days show glimpses of much the same. Abba, I need your peace. I crave your peace. I want to feel your gentle arms around me. Only you can stop the trembling that comes from the fear of losing so many people I love.

Tear

My family continues to suffer from old hurts. No matter how many times we reboot the system, the old wounds are picked clean again and again. Unlike a child who loves hearing the same story over and over again, I cannot suffer through one more retelling of what I did or did not do, what she did or did not do, what he did or did not do or what they did or did not do. As I told my children their entire lives, perception is reality and in this family everyone has their own truth. No matter how often you share your truth with others, seldom are minds changed. If they are, it never lasts.

There is only ONE thing that indeed lasts for all eternity and that is you Abba. Pick me up, hold me, rock me and let me fall asleep in your arms. I am tired!

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