Retirement is ALMOST HERE! Only nine more work days and I will be “officially” unemployed. I am not going to lie, I’m surprised. I really had no idea it would happen so quickly. One day I was in college, the next married with children who have given me five beautiful grandchildren and at the end of the month another milestone will arrive.
Time is a funny thing. When you are young everything seems to take forever. But, as you age, it seems as though time speeds up faster than you ever imagined. I don’t know if there’s any scientific evidence for such a phenomenon, but trust me, it’s a fact.
Looking back, I suppose there are a few things I would change. My childhood was one of chaos, crisis and a lack of control. My amateur self-diagnostic psych evaluation tells me that as a result, I prefer control and safety. I know my family would support that such a diagnosis is spot-on. I’m a woman who needs plans and lists…ALWAYS! So, having a need to play within the boundaries, I sometimes wish I had chosen the path less traveled…maybe taken a few more risks. The Hubs and kiddos are always up for something new. I’ve always preferred to know the outcome FIRST. I think they have the right idea. They live life fully and that makes me smile.
I know I would have looked at a scale much earlier in my life than I did. It most certainly would have saved me from much of the pain I experience daily. I guess I missed the message to “find time for you” that people talk so much about today. Given my own failure and current reality, I have two messages for folks, particularly women…DON’T GET FAT and TAKE CARE OF YOUR CORE! Trust me, when you get fat, doctors don’t care about your pain. Their advice is lose weight and come back to see me. Which seems so silly given that pain in your knees and/or back makes exercising so much more difficult. So, chronic pain becomes your best friend and hinders the life you had hoped to lead after retirement. I know…I’m about to live it!
So, retirement is almost here. I’m embracing the possibilities of what comes next. I wish it included less pain, but I’m not hopeful. I pray for more quiet from time to time so that I can hear what creation has in store for my next chapter. But, turning the page is not optional. Wish me luck!